Fuck It

This is going to be the third post about my Ex.

I'm still fucking upset. I get to school and I can't stop thinking about it. I tried to IM him to talk about it, and I asked him if it meant anything to him but he only responded "how do you mean". Like how the fuck did you not understand my question?

And then one of my friends had me spill everything about my ex and my 6 year on going on and off relationship. And it's really just got me upset again. I just don't know what to do with myself. I let myself go way to easily this weekend and I fucked up. I fucked up big time. And I hate that.

I just don't know what to do. My pride has been broken down. And I'm just to exhausted to bring it back up.