Back at school

I'm back up in the North Country now. I really can't wait for the semester to finish - just two weeks from tomorrow. Two weeks feels like a lifetime at this point.

The ride here was alright except for stupid traffic between Rochester and Syracuse. There wasn't even an accident anywhere, so I don't know why nobody could drive over 58.

I haven't spoken much to my ex. I stopped by his house this morning, but we only had an awkward conversation and I left 10 minutes later. I IMed him once I got back to school because I needed to ask him something.

I don't know why, but I can't stop thinking about our hookup. I'm just stupid - I started to have new feelings for him. I wanted to ask him if it meant anything to him, or if it was just a regular hookup. Because things felt really right to me, and I need to know if I should extinguish those feelings or if they are returned. I just have no idea.

Maybe a relationship with anyone is just out of the picture for me in my life.