I'm back

HeyItsJake.com has been missing for a couple months now - I don't really know what happened to it but for some reason, I really had no desire to bring it back. Having a domain was fun, but it just wasn't me. And I was always paranoid that my real life friends/family would find it.

But I can't go without writing. It's been killing me, so therefore, I am back. Let's try to fill everyone in on what has happened!

Well, I am a big bad ass sophomore now in college. This semester has been so much more stressful than all of last year. I was cast in our fall Opera, Gianni Schicchi, which had a cast of 12 so it was an awesome priveledge to be in it. I'm also the Vice President of our Musical Theatre Organization, so I was the Musical Director of our fall revue. It went extremely well - I didn't expect it to be as well received as it was. I'm so proud of what I've accomplished this semester.

But there has been a general theme for these past 4 months - I'm still single. And I HATE it. Being single is fun and everything, but I'm a relationship person. I like to be in love with someone. And this semester has just been so disappointing so far. It got so bad that I hooked up with this guy, who we'll call Sam - and he's a guy I don't even like to be seen with. It was fun to hook up but then he started telling everyone about it so I ended it, and in return he deleted me on Facebook. [Rolls Eyes]. And the other guy, Steve (another fake name) and I had hooked up last year, and he got drunk and invited me over and stuff just happened. But I don't like hooking up with people because, 1) I'm a relationship person, like I said, and 2) I don't like how people judge you for hooking up with people.

There's a couple people here that could be possibilities for relationship - one being my friend "Pro". He and I just click, and I could see us being together. But there's something holding me back, and I don't know what it is. So until I figure out what it is, I don't plan on being with him. Another one is my friend "Vince", whom I wrote about in my other blogs. But he and I barely talk anymore, and it's basically just my crush that still exists on him. Another one would be my friend Robby - real name - but he's not the smartest and I like my guys to be sort of smart.

Maybe my standards are just too high? I don't know - I don't want to rush into a relationship with someone just to be in a relationship. I want to find someone that can make it last with me. I'm just too impatient.