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I'm finally home for Winter break. A whole month of doing nothing. Seriously - I have like no plans. I have plans for New Years, and for a couple days after that when I go visit CCM, but other than that, nothing.

Boca and I haven't talked much since the night I spent in his room. I asked him what he was doing this past Saturday, but he went to a party so we didn't get to hang out. I then left this morning and made a point to not say goodbye to him. But once I got home, I couldn't help myself, and texted him and we continued to text a little bit. But I feel like there's really nothing there, and that I'm just trying to convince myself that there is. Whatever, I'm home, and I need to relax.

I hung out with my best friend tonight. We seriously don't get to see eachother enough and it really makes me sad. We go to schools that are 8 hours away from eachother, and most of her breaks are not the same as mine. She's been going through a rough patch and may not be going back to her school in the Spring, but I know she won't transfer to my school, which I wouldn't want her to do anyway. I just want her to be happy, with whatever decision she chooses. 

And this guy from home has been texting me lately - Storm, we'll call him. He works at a video place here in town, and has been texting me a little bit here and there. He wants to hang out with me, but I don't really have much interest in him (probably because of my infatuation with Boca). I don't know if it's really worth getting involved with anyone for this break in the first place. I'd rather stick to myself and work on some of my voice stuff for next semester. I don't need to get mixed up in some shit again.